A warm welcome to Day 39 of our 40 Day Retreat 2009.
Today, my topic is the gift of the Sahasrara chakra. Yesterday, I spoke about coming to terms with our divinity that during the Forty-Days of 1978, it took me a week to accept that I can have the power of the master within me to express and that I could have the consciousness of the master. Of course, I knew that the power, the divinity was inside of me from my spiritual awakening and from the guidance from inside. This was a completely different stage. Though I honored, revered and was empowered by every word of the master, I could not think in my mind of being a master. Of course, you know, a master of myself and to come into that master’s consciousness. For the first week I was completely perplexed.
But at the end of it when I was told to assume a quality of a master and I did, there was a huge difference. Suddenly I felt “Yes, I feel the master’s consciousness”. That took me to another level of awareness. This is the deep level of the Ajna chakra where we begin to feel like how the masters feel. All genuine masters when you listen to their words they really tell us that we should be like them. Here I was realizing that. The moment I felt it, the rest of the Forty-Days became even more powerful.
Commitment to the Process
Now I want you to know that I did not know that these would have been Forty-Days. In fact I thought in my mind that I was going to be secluded for about ten years. I could not think in my mind that whatever was going to happen to me at that stage of the journey would be Forty-Days. I had no clue in my mind that it would be. I was committed to however long it would take. Just think about that, at the age of twenty-four being committed to seclusion in a house, in a space. The only time I would walk out of my room was in the night when every body was in their rooms. Each day that succeeded brought gifts to me.
As I began to practice identifying with the master’s consciousness I felt so much more power inside of me. The Ajna chakra vibrated powerfully. I felt like the rest of the body below the heart was lifeless, just the heart, throat and brow chakras. All I wanted to do during this phase of my spiritual discipline was to burst open the brow. That was all I wanted to do and I felt so powerful I felt that I could burst open this brow, I could break that knot completely. Well that actually happened.
I remember in pursuing this day and night the consciousness would be there, so whether I lay down to rest or whether I sat down to meditate, it was the same kind of power. Even in the sleep, the kriyas would be there, the energies would be high and my witness consciousness seemed to be more and more powerful. I seemed to be moving into a space of witnessing that became more and more powerful. All I could think about at that stage was about power, power, power! The muscles in my face would be grimacing.
I remember one day dreaming; well of course the dreams were not like ordinary dreams of normal people, the dreams were very clear, very powerful and very meaningful. I knew there was another state inside of reality. In fact as I remember I became so conscious in my dream and I was saying, “Wow what is this state?” I thought to myself, “Whatever I think about in this state can become a reality.” I thought let me think of a horse and there was the horse in full being. I knew this state was not a fantasy or imagination. It was another state of reality.
Then one day while focusing on brow chakra so powerfully wanting to burst it open, I saw a tower and a tower clock and I took that to mean no matter what you do, you have to wait on time. Nothing is going to happen until that clock is in the right position. Of course, I did not know what day I was on, like now I know that I am on Day 39, but then I had no idea.
Energy Experiences After Brow Center Broke Open
On the fortieth day the brow center broke open! Forty! That is why I consider the number 40 to be so sacred. All the restlessness disappeared, I felt so relieved and at the very crown of my head for the first time I could feel this sensation up in the crown of my head that continues to be there.
When the brow broke open and the energy went to the head, the energy from the second chakra pulled to the third and remained full in the third. I became a different person. My whole being became cool.
Sahasrara chakra in some of the literature is not described as a chakra like the others but described as a destination. It is called a chakra because it has energy. In terms of opening, it is not the Sahasrara that opens up. It is the brow chakra that opens up and the gift of the Sahasrara is there. Sahasrara is the destination. It is symbolized as a thousand petal lotus. The lotus is downturned and its nectar is flowing through the body, the cool nectarian feeling. That is what I felt. My whole being was infused with this cool energy.
During those days of Sadhana, of discipline, my stomach was as though it contracted and I was eating very little, I could not eat any more. I remember that morning when I asked for my glass of milk, it just did not satisfy me. I needed to get more milk and pretty soon I realized that the stomach had come back to its original place after the release of this brow, and my morning breakfast was different.
Ecstasy of ‘I Am’ Consciousness
What was significant about this consciousness is that when I sat down to meditate as the master, it did not happen. My mantra was “I am the master, I am the master, I am the master, I am the master.” When I sat down to repeat “I am the master” and to focus on the brow all I could feel was the energy of the crown, no longer the brow, and it did not want to say “master”. All it wanted to say was “I am, I am, I am…I am”, no master. That was a huge new experience for me. I did not have to practice any master’s consciousness. I was in the Sahasrara, the place of freedom. I did not have to practice anything. In fact I did not care to sing anymore or to perform any kind of discipline. It all disappeared and it all seemed one. It did not matter. I could feel this feeling at the crown of my head and it was ecstatic. When I breathed the energy it would go to my crown and my head would become high.
New Consciousness Relating to People
Now I knew that I did not need to be in seclusion any more, gradually I began my interaction. When I began my interaction with people I could experience people in a different way, I experienced them as energy. I could feel what was happening in their hearts and minds in a very powerful way. I could feel the power of their intentions the moment I looked at them I could feel that. It is a whole new consciousness in terms of relating to people.
When I was walking down the step, there was an external step to come outside and there was a plant on the step. I looked at the plant and it did not look ordinary to me. I was seeing a little life coming out of the ground and standing. I saw life differently. Now every tree is a form of consciousness and life coming out. When I listen to people, I can tell when their hearts, minds and words are not integrated. When they are saying one thing and meaning another. I am watching and I am saying, “What is this?” I could feel the energy of everything around me.
Consciousness Radically and Permanently Transformed
I thought I needed to focus on my head all the time to keep this energy there but after a while I realized I did not have to focus anywhere. That energy was staying there and not moving at all and the ecstasy and the “I am” consciousness was staying and not moving at all. I realized that I could not be anything else but what this state brought.
It took me months to get back to ordinary activities but when I did I remained centered inside no matter what I was doing. My consciousness was radically and permanently transformed. Not to go back to any other place. The light was complete. There came a certain kind of fearlessness that no matter what I do in the world, no matter where I go I could only be this. I cannot be anything else. I could only lift people’s energies. I could only speak the best. I could only respect the people around me. I could not do anything else. There was no chance for me to do anything else.
The mind was no longer in duality. It was no longer good and bad. It just was! That is the blessing of the Sahasrara, you see all of life; no good, no bad. It just is. You want to lift everything around you. There is no chance that you would want to think negative thoughts towards anyone or anything. It just would not come into this consciousness. The consciousness has been transformed in the fires of discipline, it has been cleaned and it is clear. All it seeks is to express itself in fullness in the human experience nothing else. That is how I know what masters feel. They are completely in a different space. They may be judged on the outside by actions but no one can know the space that they live in.
Your Consciousness Mirrored In The Master
You see the master looking angry and you think the master is angry, the master is never angry, the master cannot be angry. But the master can channel energy through anger and especially when you come angry to the master you have given the master a tool because your consciousness is mirrored in the master. The master can use that mirror to come back at you and if you change that attitude the master is powerless. The master only works with your attitude and is a mirror to it but the master is free.
Now I understand perfectly the mantra Guru Brahma Guru Vishnu Guru Devo Maheshwara, Guru Sakshaat Paraabrahma, Tasmai Shri Guruve Namaha that the Guru has gone to a state of Paraabrahma has gone even beyond Brahma, Vishnu, Maheshwara, the creating, sustaining and destroying power. The Guru is beyond everything, the Guru consciousness.
All that I have said today is what you have inside of you. The gift of Sahasrara is yours. I took forty days in seclusion to realize this. Sometimes when I listen to you, you tell me about the crown, something that I did not even experience and there you have it just by sitting, you have crown experiences that I did not even have, now you see the gift. Though I had to stay in seclusion for forty days there you are, you have it freely. You can sit in the open and your crown is opening.
Tomorrow I speak about life after, what happened in the world and how I managed my energies in the world.
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