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Welcome
to the Day after the 40 Days.
A Cosmic Event
Today we are 30 years from that marvellous day in 1978 when I experienced such a release in my inner being. I came to a completely new level of awareness, one that I could never have dreamed of. Even the 39th Day does not compare, in terms of the experience that I had in this day. It would have happened in the very early morning of this day. It was such a marvellous transformation. But I am sure that I will discuss this some other time, or perhaps in an autobiography in more detail. It was certainly a marvellous day.
I understood the significance because the way it happened, it was a cosmic event. I cannot say more to you but I knew then the purpose. I would say the Blue Star was born then in the very early morning of this day.
Master of myself; Servant to the World
I had become a servant, a complete servant to humanity. I was given a very noble mission of service to humanity in the way that it is a joy for me to serve. I have always said that I was a servant to humanity and I continue to maintain that. That is my greatest joy. When people call me Master, I say “I am a master of myself, but servant to my world.”
Joy of Self-mastery
The joy of self-mastery is what I will forever carry in my being. The most prized possession in my lifetime amongst everything else, is the joy of self-mastery. In my early teens I glorified that, when I saw it in anything: in the comic books I used to read, in the biographies of people, and in the movies that I may have seen, I glorified self-mastery and it became an intense passion for me at the age of twenty. It was an intense passion! I could not live without self-mastery. Then at twenty-four I got into a state that I could feel it completely in my being. It is an experience of the energetic world. It is an experience of Self that allows me to use these powers in the most beautiful way.
In Joyful Service to Humanity
Ultimately on 5th May, the only way I could use these powers from the energy body was in service to humanity. There was no other way. And I gladly do so today. As you know I do so without expecting anything in return. No one has to give me anything. For those who offer from the depth of their heart, I know it is the Universe that is giving me. So I need nothing from those people who give with expectations. Those who give to me without expectations, they give for my Universe. I see beyond them. I see their hands as the hands of the Universe.
40 Days were Pre-determined
That day was a tremendous joy for me. I had no expectation that it would have been 40 days. In fact, if I had thought that it would have been the next day, I would have calculated and realized it would be 40 Days, because my very dear Mother had said (I heard through someone) that she was told by the Guru it would have been that. When I remembered that and counted the days, I saw it was actually so. I still have an entry in one of the books I used during that period on that day. It was a marvellous day.
New Experiences
On that morning in 1978 I went to have my usual glass of milk that would have contained me so nicely, in my perhaps shrunken stomach, because when the energy was working deeply, the stomach could not contain much. When I had the glass of milk, however, it seemed that the stomach was back to normal, so one glass of milk was not enough. I was amazed. I had another glass.
I then realized that the experience I had early in the morning at the crown of my head was still there. I thought I had to concentrate there to keep it. But as I went about my ordinary activities during the day, it was there and it continued to stay there. The state of this new awareness stayed. It was only in the evening of that day, after understanding the significance of everything, that I invited my family to join in. I guess they were totally confused about what was happening to me, how come I was completely different? It was a beautiful moment to reconnect with them.
Significance of the Name
There began my service to humanity. Then I saw the significance of the name Vasudeva that the Guru would have given so freely, perhaps not even knowing in his human sense, where this name would go; to whom it would go. But he himself as a perfect instrument gave it so freely. When I was given this name the Guru closed his eyes and just said it. I thought it was such a beautiful moment. When I asked, “Would you please give me a name?” He closed his eyes and he said, “Vasudeva”. The Universe gave it to me. Not a human being.
Vasudeva means the Light of Divinity that shines in everyone.
The World is my Family
That is how my Universe is telling me to see my world, as Vasudeva; to see divinity expressed in the entire world. So after this experience of coming out of the 40 Days I renounced the name of my parents. This is only because I felt that my role is completely different. Not the role of the family member any more, but the role where the entire world is my family. There is a beautiful saying in the Indian tradition:
Vasudhaiva Kutumbakam - the whole world is one family.
That has been my vision ever since.
My family is my world, and in particular all those who seek me out, all those who hold me as their guide. They gave me the great responsibility and the honour of pointing out the way - how to find themselves in themselves. That is my honour and joy: “Here is the way! Go within, it is all there. This is how it looks. This is how it feels.”
Seek your own Freedom
One little message for you today is that the world exists for our freedom, not anybody else’s. So when we complain: “This one is not doing it, that one is not doing it; this one is not treating me good, and that one is not praising me enough,” and when we have so many expectations of how the world should treat us, it is not about that. You know this is the nature of the world: one day someone will hail you and praise you, and the next day they will kick you.
That is the nature of this world. Tell me that it is different! Convince me that it is different! There is the glory of birth and the sadness of death. The joy of wellness and vitality and the pain of suffering and disease. Tell me this world is different. That is what my eyes see. Then what is the purpose? The purpose is for me to use all the experiences around me for my freedom. Not anybody else’s but for my freedom!
What is my Lesson?
When you get caught up in thinking, “These people are not honouring me, or praising me, or appreciating me”, you are seeing the wrong way. You are going the wrong way. The idea should be, “What should I learn from this? What is my lesson in this situation? When they are not praising me or appreciating me, what is my lesson? When they are pushing my buttons, what is my lesson? Exactly what is my lesson? When the sun does not shine today, what is my lesson? When the rain falls so much, what is my lesson? When my body is diseased, what is my lesson? When people at my workplace do not show love, what is my lesson?
What is my lesson? I want to learn what is my lesson. I don’t want to give a recipe to the world of how the world should be. I want to be able to create my own recipe for how I should be. That’ is what I learned from very young.
The world exists for my Growth
When I went to India, instead of finding fault in the various ashrams, I was very happy to learn what I should not do, and how I should not be. When I saw people coming to spiritual places and dishonouring them with indiscipline. I did differently. That is how I don’t want to be! When I saw people lingering on the spiritual path, caught up in all sorts of vices, I said, “That’s not how I want to be.” When I saw people disciplined, I said, “This is how I want to be.” And when I saw the master teacher, that is what I wanted: Mastery! He became my role model. My focus, therefore, has always been my journey. The world exists for my growth and development, not for me to change it.
Messenger of Freedom
Vasudeva was not meant to change this world. There will be many Vasudevas involved in the transformation of this world. This world has a lot of time yet for transformation. It is going to be a gradual and slow process. My role is to be the messenger in this lifetime of mine, to those who are ready for this message: the message of human energies, divine energies, the message of self-transformation, the message of Self-realization, the message of journeying the final leg of the journey in the human experience. So for those whom this is important, then I am the messenger. The world will go along its merry way, but they are the important ones to me, and my joy and honour is in serving them.
This was the consciousness that was born in me on that beautiful day in 1978
-Master of myself; servant to the world.
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